I have a new release on XConfessions! And this time I’m tackling that demon of all demons, jealousy! So I brought in a real-life couple, Miro and Lucy, to go to a “therapy session” with newcomer Dion de Rossi! Jealousy Shock Therapy is based on a fantastically original confession by Sanda Lalalla about the Ludovico technique in A Clockwork Orange. But this time, she wants to use the therapy to make her enjoy watching her boyfriend be with another woman!
I have always been jealous. I’m not proud of it. It’s a tough feeling to feel. One day, I just had enough. And I decided to go experimental with it:
I asked my boyfried to book a hooker, the most beautiful one he could find, just his type. And I know what his type is: Think Kate Middleton, tall and slender, a brunette with hazelnut eyes, short hair (he likes short hair). I wanted to have to watch him making love to another woman. I wanted to suffer through and heal. I needed to be tied up, I fancied a scenario quite like the Ludovico aversion therapy in Clockwork Orange, well not quite so cruel maybe and working the other way round of course. In the end I wanted to like what I was made to witness, hopefully be aroused.
Deal, he said. We prepared the bedroom together. Everything had to be lush. The bed. The sheets. The lights. We put an armchair in the corner for me. He undressed me and tied me up, sipping a Gin&Tonic, his eyes sparkling with excitement. I relaxed as he scrunched up a silk scarf into my mouth. Then the doorbell rang…
From Sandra Lalalla’s confession Jealousy Shock Therapy.
Lucy and Miro are having problems in their relationship. Miro is super jealous of Lucy, because she’s beautiful and he feels like everyone wants to have sex with her. Don’t we all feel that way when we’re in love?! So here they are, sitting on the couch of a sex therapist/couples counsellor to see how they can save their relationship.
What they aren’t expecting is for Dion, the therapist, to suggest a radical new form of therapy. She calls it JST – Jealousy Shock Therapy, and it involves tying Miro to a bed and forcing him to watch as Dion and Lucy have sex… What happens next, you’ll have to watch and see!
I have loved working with Miro and Lucy on both of the films we’ve made together. It’s always really beautiful to see a real couple having sex for the camera – they bring an intimacy, and knowledge of each other’s bodies, that is hard to find in other films. Plus we had the added pleasure of Dion de Rossi joining us! They are one of the smartest people I know, and I could often spy them on set having fascinating conversations with people, or hanging out with Kali.
This film also let us use, for the second time, the Jailhouse Fuckbed! Above you’ll see a gallery of images by Christian Geymer who was involved in providing the bed. It was so fun to use! Having Miro tied to it was the pefect solution to the Ludovico torture element. This film also features a pegging scene – and one of the things I like most about Miro is the noises he makes when he’s being fucked! Fantastic.
You’re sure to see more of these performers in the future, I can guarantee it!
In XConfessions, people from all over the world share their sexual stories and fantasies. Every month I pick two and turn them into cinematic short films. Still not a member of XConfessions? Register now! Or share your sexual fantasy, and it might become a short film 😉
* All photos in this post: Are by Adriana Eskenazi aside from those in the Behind-the-scenes gallery, by Christian Geymer