His Was First in My Ass

Some books change the way you see the world. Some change the way you see your own body.

This confession begins with Toni Bentley's The Surrender, a book that reframed everything. Because until that moment, anal sex or rimming felt like something to avoid. Something humiliating. Something that wasn't for her.

Then she read about a woman who felt powerful. Attractive. Completely herself.

She waited for the right person. Someone she trusted completely. And then, as the book puts it: his was first. In her ass. What began as a revelation became a regular pleasure and, as she puts it, her great pride.

Directed by Erika Lust for XConfessions, because sometimes the most transformative confessions begin in a bookshop.