Each month a guest from the kink community takes over this column to give us the 411 on their chosen kink. This month Miss Mae Ling is here to answer all of our questions about diaper fetish.
The sound of laughter and people talking ring in your ears, you’re feeling hot and sweaty – nervous someone found out about your dirty secret. Your privates start to tingle with the heat. This is it, everyone knows you’re wearing a diaper and are laughing at you. Have you been outed? It may be loud, but you swear they can hear the crinkles of your diaper as you walk around. It is getting so heavy and soggy after you’ve already peed 3 times in it. The swollen diaper stretches out your pants and it’s making you waddle around – partially due to the fact that it’s dirty so you don’t want to touch it and also because it’s so thick now it’s getting harder to close your legs. What can you do but to beg for a fresh clean diaper change, completely at the mercy of your caretaker.
Diapers, probably one of the most taboo of all kinks. An outcast and an outlier due to credit card companies banning such keywords to veer away from child pornography and pedophilia with a misunderstanding from the public of what the kink actually is. But this is something entirely different, its own unique sweet kink. Let’s start from the beginning – at one point in time we have all been in a diaper and sometimes that was even non-consensual! So why is putting on a softly padded, crinkly diaper as an adult a thing? Now that we have a choice as an adult to do whatever we want, sometimes making decisions can be difficult – especially when you’re making them all the time.
So let’s give that power and control to someone else - where you can feel nurtured and cared for. Back to the simpler times, where you were unable to give consent. When you were coloring outside of the lines and playing with your favorite toys. Feeling protected, safe, cozy and relaxed in your thick padded diaper. Where you don’t even have to make decisions as to getting up to go to the bathroom and disrupting your play time. The comforting sounds of the crinkles is as if it’s your very own white noise, canceling out the noise pollution of the world and any troubles at all.
Let’s differentiate the two who dabble with diapers. There are those who are just diaper lovers and then there are those who consider themselves adult babies and participate in age regression play. Yes, you can love being in a diaper without role playing as a child. Yep, a big kid in a big kid’s diaper. Why? Well, it’s some great humiliation play!
I asked my fans how they felt when wearing a diaper – see the word cloud below.
To be trained and forced to wet oneself (peeing) and humiliated for it. Being made to carry on your day in a soggy heavily swollen diaper. Now you carry that shame and embarrassment with you as it gets stinkier and stinkier. Eventually begging for a diaper change, craving and wanting a freshly new diaper under the mercy of being made to soil it again. Not to mention taking it a step further and messing (pooping) oneself. There is also the assistance of suppositories that can speed this up and one is forced to sit in their own filth. Somehow playing with someone’s own byproduct just seems so taboo in the world, even though you made it yourself. Luckily in this type of play it is contained in a padded diaper.
A diaper is very identifiable, it crinkles and pokes out at the hips looking like some high waisted plastic guard. And yet how unsuspecting would it be to wear one out in public underneath one’s normal clothes. This makes for very fun discreet public play where, as the play draws out the more inevitable it is to wet yourself. Swelling that diaper and becoming embarrassed as your pants get bigger and more uncomfortable. Perhaps even to the point where it’s so stinky someone would smell it or if you were to even leak! A grown adult with bladder issues is very embarrassing indeed. Embarrassing, yet somehow the thought of being outed seems so freeing from the shame and guilt – transitioning to owning your own kink. We do love the allure of almost being caught doing something naughty in public, something about the intense crinkles and swollen thick padding in between one’s legs…good thing there’s a diaper that would cover up that boner.
Thick padding in between one’s legs can be so thick that it would lead to altering one’s walking capabilities, end up waddling around and eventually bringing them straight down to their knees where their submissive selves belong – crawling on the ground. Being forced to crawl around on one’s hands and knees due to the pathetic helpless feeling of being in diapers or the diapers alone make them feel little and small to where they regress to crawling in their little space.
To add to the helpless feeling, it’s a form of bondage, denial and chastity. Wearing a padded diaper that dulls the pleasure sensations bestowed upon one’s genitals – well that’s just a tease and oh so cruel. It forces the individual to writhe and hump even harder to receive any sort of satisfaction. Breaking them free of any sexual self-inhibitions and being present, focusing on hedonistic pleasures.
Let’s change the perspective of why people enjoy putting others into diapers. It can fulfill and satiate the desire to nurture someone. Feeding the maternal or paternal instincts, by playing the Mommy or Daddy role and not actually having a child. It can be hilariously fun to control so many aspects of another human, from bowel movements to crawling and down to the orgasm controls. As a sex worker, I find great safety in feeling protected when a client is in a diaper. It is not only a cute diaper butt; it is also a non-threatening individual to play with.